Bert McCracken

#005
Wow...It's funny how you know you're screwed and royally fucked when you look around at your surroundings and realize that you're miles out of town, in the middle of nowhere, and having absolutely no fucking idea where in the name of holy hell you are.

Shit...

I thought I was digging myself into a hole, but now I realize that I'm digging my grave, and trust me, it's far more deep then six feet under.

It's a strange thing to realize things about yourself, things that you would have preferred to never had known, things that you know you buried for a reason, but what is even more weird and in your face, is when your realize the person that you have become. When you look in the mirror and see yourself and finally realize how low you have sunk, and how you are still sinking even when you know this and are doing nothing to stop it from happening.
It's an odd thing to be content with your life only to have it turn around and make you question everything, make you question others, yourself, actions, addictions, morals, lies...but what's even odder, is when you discover that you're questioning life itself, your own existance.

What to you do when you realize that you've become your nightmare?
What do you do when you've become the man you've hated for so long?
What do you do when you've got nowhere left to go?
What happens when you realize the truth?
When will the next pickup truck pull up beside the road and offer you a ride?
How much longer will you be walking?
How much longer can you last?
Will it be long before not even breath remains in a cold, souless body?

What do you do when you realize, that all you are, is someone with no chance of turning back, someone who has no remorse, someone who is cold hearted....
...
A Liar.

-McCracken-

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